Last Saturday evening, before I took the herbal medicines, I was filled with anxiety. I wasn’t sure how I’d react to them. My mind spun with uncertainty—but deep within, my intuition whispered softly, “Just try a small amount.” So I listened. I took a tiny dose, letting my body and spirit ease into the unknown.

Not long after, I challenged myself: “Show me my fears. Let me face them.”

And the shift began.

A few hours in, I felt different—lighter, curious, and open. Something in me wanted to wander, so I picked up a lantern and ventured into the trees. My footsteps eventually took me toward the hot tub, where I thought people might be waiting for me. But when I got there, they were already submerged, enjoying the water, laughing like it was one big glowing jacuzzi.

That’s when I realized… I was lost. I couldn’t remember where I was.

Surrounded by trees. In the dark. Alone.

Fear started to creep in—one of my oldest fears: being lost in the dark.

I paused. I placed a hand on my chest. And I breathed. In. Out.

And then, with intention, I turned off the lantern.

Suddenly, the dark wasn’t so terrifying.

I saw small lights scattered all around… And when I looked up—wow. The stars.

They shimmered so beautifully, like they were waiting for me to notice them. I smiled.

I kept walking—without the light—trusting myself.

And somehow, I found my way to the hot tub.

Not because I could see—but because I let go of the fear.

I greeted my friends in the water and told them I wanted to keep walking, keep exploring, and keep feeling. So I did. I wandered through the trees, surrounded by the hum of Mother Nature. I saw glowing, colorful lights scattered across the darkness like magic. The air felt alive, like it was hugging me. The earth buzzed with vibration, and I could feel a deep, sacred connection—love, safety, belonging.

After a couple of hours, my body began to soften with fatigue.

I returned to the lodge, curled up in a warm blanket, and sank into bed.

No chaos in my head.

No fear in my heart.

Just peace.

And a soft, quiet smile.